“You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life. But ain’t about how hard you hit… It’s about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward… how much you can take, and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you worth, go out and get what you worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits.” Rocky Balboa.
If you subscribe to Live Lighter, you’ll know I haven’t posted in over a week. That’s highly unusual for me but it was unavoidable; life hit me with another punch: my computer blew up last week! I’ve been managing my feelings of frustration of being unable to blog, check email and the general upheaval of my life on my computer, taking it in to be fixed while also facing the loss of many important files.
It’s actually funny timing because I was finally starting to feel settled in my fabulous new apartment (and new life following my breakup – read How to Overcome Adversity and Attract What You Want) and after conquering many obstacles (more on this in my upcoming review on a new energy healing technique). I was preparing to get back into my healthy routine since I lost it in the move (along with my favourite appliance, my Oster blender) on October 1st.
The Universe definitely has a sense of humour. The week prior to my hard drive breakdown, even though life’s been really good, I found myself focusing on the past and lamenting on what I’ve lost. I know most of these negative thoughts and feelings are because I’ve been neglecting self-care again… “I just need to unpack a few more boxes and then I’ll feel settled enough to regain my healthy routine,” I’ve been telling myself.
Immediately following the breakup while I was in shock, it was clear to me that what I needed most was self-care to manage the life event, my stress surrounding all the necessary and subsequent changes, and to create a life solely focused on my own happiness (read My Spiritual-Kick-In-the-Ass Saved My Life). And it was easy!
For the rest of the summer (2 months) while I worked and saved money to fund my new life, search for a decent apartment within my budget and pack, my healthy routine gave me a more positive outlook as well as the energy and clarity to do what I needed and wanted to do. It was actually an amazing, happy time (for the most part), because I was taking care of all of my needs first before thinking of what others needed/wanted from me.
It’s going on 5 weeks now where getting settled into my new pad and a new part-time serving gig has taken priority over my physical wellness. Unfortunately, this neglect is beginning to wear on my mental and emotional well-being. I believe that since I’ve been allowing sadness and loss to permeate my thoughts and feelings, the Universe stepped in once again to smarten me up.
Yes, that’s right, I believe I helped manifest this computer breakdown because I haven’t been focusing on all the blessings that have come along with this new life! I’ve gained SO much to be thankful for during this life transition. The people around me recognize this and they’ve not only been pointing out all this goodness to me but also feel it necessary to remind me that I achieved it because of who I really am.
(It’s interesting how people can sense when your self-esteem has taken a beating or when you don’t recognize your own value. Thank you to all the wonderful angels in my life right now who take the time to share with me what you see when you look at me, the real me, both my current strengths as well as my potential!)
Actually, I’m quite proud of how I’ve handled this latest bump in the road and I continue to surprise myself with my mental fortitude (even though I know with a healthier routine NOTHING can ruffle my feathers – I’ve experienced firsthand this superhuman emotional and mental strength). Bring it on!
Although I struggled a bit when it first happened, I quickly managed my thoughts and emotions. I accepted the situation and potential loss, and accessed the knowledge within me that I have what it takes to deal with whatever the consequences turned out to be. And, that dear Readers, is the positive thinking/knowing which I believe helped create a more positive outcome: my Techno Hero gave me hope I could retrieve all my files!
So, what now? I’m working on regaining my healthy routine once again because I know that’s what gives me strength and a limitless perspective. At the same time I’ve got several options to retrieve my lost files and there’s a ton of work to be done on my computer to get it back to the way it was with all my necessary programs and preferred configurations. Of course, this is on top of work, fun and other responsibilities…
I hope you’ll have patience and understanding (posting will probably be sporadic) while I overcome this latest obstacle. I have a whack of guest posts (they were among the lost files but I may still be able to hunt them down in email saved on my server) and I’m still working on Live Lighter’s redesign.