If you’ve been reading Live Lighter on a regular basis, you’ll know I’ve been dealing with a Spiritual Kick-in-the-Ass and it’s consequences. This courtesy post is to let you know a little bit about what’s going on in my life right now and to give you a head’s up about how it’ll affect the blog.
While thus far I’ve taken responsibility for my part in my Spiritual Kick-in-the-Ass (and still do), I’ve since realized that it wasn’t only my actions that precipitated the current circumstances. (Yay! Self-blame sucks.) There were lots of factors precipitating the event and I understand now how this needed to happen for the greater good of everyone involved.
Truthfully, I feel a little manic-depressive right now. On my “good” days, I feel enlightened and confident that this painful life event is necessary for all those concerned, that everything is as it should be and it will all work out in the end.
Even though everyday I believe this to be true, on my “bad” days I still find myself lamenting the past and resisting the moment. I’m fully aware that most of it’s simply ghost tentacles of the attachment; nevertheless, I’m experiencing feelings of hurt, anger and frustration, and I struggle between the fear and excitement of the upcoming changes.
I’ve intentionally left out details of this life event to protect my privacy and yet still try to share with you the lessons I’m learning during this trying time. However, I must reveal another clue because it affects you, specifically regarding the time needed to maintain Live Lighter.
As part of the repercussions of this life event, I’ve been apartment hunting and preparing to pack up all my belongings. (As a side note, I’ve also been working with a team to redesign Live Lighter!) Yes, I’m moving, and besides moving, I’m also looking for part-time work while maintaining my freelance writing business.
Whew. It’s a big load and I’m doing my best to deal with it all, including the emotional aspects of this major life event. On a daily basis, I do what I must to maintain my healthy living routine in order to handle the stress – and I’m doing it!
The above picture is recent – I’ve shed almost 20 pounds since July and I’ve gotten even leaner and meaner since this picture was taken! A big thank you to Rudy Ens of ENspace Photography for not only being a good friend and lending his emotional support but also in contributing his skills and talents in capturing a new, stronger and emotionally mature Stephanie!
Meditating, exercise, eating well, taking vitamin supplements (especially vitamin B complex), having fun time, avoiding drugs and alcohol (for the most part) and getting incredible social and emotional support have all helped me keep it together and avoid self-destruction.
(The only thing I haven’t successfully been able to incorporate in my stress-management health routine is sleep – I’m doing my best but for the most part deep and restful sleep alludes me.)
So, things have come to a culmination this month. I’m finding it increasingly difficult to maintain a regular posting schedule here on Live Lighter. Since a big part of what I teach is healthy selfishness and balance, I’m notifying you now that I’m prioritizing my personal life. Please expect that posting will be irregular for at least a month.
I hope you understand. I’ll post when I can to the best of my ability in each moment. (We’ve got a bunch of great guest bloggers lined up, by the way.) I’m excited to return to you completely refreshed, enlightened and, if all goes as planned, with a brand new look for Live Lighter!