It’s been 2 weeks since I last blogged. Life continues to throw hard balls and while some of them are ego bruising, they’ve also been catalysts to a few major decisions that I’ve been putting off for awhile now. And I really feel I’m finally moving in the right direction to create the life I want!
Although I create my happiness on a daily basis, there have been several BIG changes I knew I’ve needed to make since at least January of this year to create deep and fulfilling happiness. I’ve known since last summer actually when I read (and did the exercises) in The Beauty Blueprint by Michelle Phillips – book review to come one day – through which I discovered my authentic self, foundational values and created my vision of the life I want.
To give me some kudos, I did make a few changes but after trying them out, they ended up not aligning with my values and dreams. They got me a bit closer to my vision and the life I would love to live but not quite. However, I have a stubborn tendency to hang on and try to make something work even when it’s clear that it won’t…
I dragged my ass basically. I was even offered an AMAZING career opportunity a few months back, but said I’d have to take the summer to think about it because, well, honestly, it scared the hell out of me. You see, it’s a fairly complex situation and it requires a move out of Toronto where I’ve lived for 16 years and BACK to my hometown which I never thought I’d ever do.
Funny thing, though, the main thing that kept me here, at least for the summer, came to an end last week. Although how it all went down bruised my ego, I saw the blessing for what it was: I was free! Once that *self-imposed* restriction was lifted, I could really see what was being offered to me: exactly what I’ve been asking for since I did the work in Michelle’s book!
I just couldn’t see it before; maybe because I was blinded by comfort and/or I just assumed my wants and dreams would happen in Toronto…
I’m a firm believer in the Law of Attraction, that the Universe wants us to be happy and all we have to do is know what we want and take action when we need to. When we can do all this, then we help manifest our desires (if we are ready for them in our personal spiritual evolution).
Before choosing to make this move, I had a chance to review the events over the past few months. Some of it’s been fun and exciting, like reconnecting with a man from my past and dating him from a distance and building what seems like a healthy relationship. Other events have been really tough, like my Mom getting ill.
But looking back, I can see how all of these events have been unfolding and leading me to make this decision to move, to help my Mom, give the relationship a chance and try out this career opportunity.
Things are happening FAST now that I made the decision to try things out in my hometown. It’s scary but I’m pushing through the fear (with a little help from my friends) and doing what I need to do to see the move through. The wonderful part of all this is that the process of leaving is going so smooth and easy so far! For instance, both my employer and landlord have been completely understanding of the short notice and expressed loss over my moving on.
I feel at this point that I’m making all the right moves to get me closer to creating a deeply fulfilling life. I just have to face my fears and continue moving forward, trusting my gut and the Universe to lead me along the right path.
Have you ever done something completely frightening that threatens your sense of security? How did it turn out?